moments from a month ago

feel like distant memories

the person who i was a month ago

feels like a person i cannot recognise

speaking about how you feel will never ruin a real connection

speaking about how you feel should never be something to fear

speaking about how you feel should never feel like a burden

speaking about how you feel will never tarnish love

the term 'based' within the context of urban culture is very interesting

largely credited to originate from lil b

the word 'based' was adopted from an old smoking term

basehead

based being derived from such

later meaning

a crackhead

where lil b adopted the term to change it to a positive idea of embracing who you are

'Based means being yourself. Not being scared of what people think about you... When I was younger, based was a negative term... I started embracing it like, 'Yeah, I'm based.' I made it mine.' - Lil B, 2010

This gave the term a positive connotation

with its primary routes in being true to yourself and self love

Later on

this term was adopted by incel and neo-nazi culture on places like 4chan

the words meaning changed to relate to saying a common, normally politically incorrect, statement

The word 'based' still carries that notion today

but now it seems that the red pilled side of the internet believe that this word still has a good, positive connotation

despite them using it to solidify and normalise their radical beliefs

Its particularly interesting that it is used a lot to spread hate and discourse towards minority groups in the modern day

where the word was originally used as a way to embrace who you are

it is now used as a word to achieve the opposite

oppressing people for being who they are

You aren't 'based' for being

transphobic

racist

homophobic

antisemitic

You are just a victim of incel culture

a victim of neo-nazism

a victim of self ego and the modern day desire to be perceived as

different

and 'aware'

claviculars nose job wasn't a botched plastic surgery process

its an example of how beauty comes from the imperfections

as you try to perfect your facial harmony, you take away the human aspects of yourself

a face isn't perceived as perfect because it meets certain metrics

its when it meets your own personal taste

the thought of not knowing is terrifying

i wish i could live the same day on repeat

the same foods

the same people

the same experiences

i hate change

i hate not being able to prepare

i hate not knowing what to expect

people are confusing

people have no set solution

joy comes from the unknown

the unknown is necessary

i often change to accommodate what i believe a person may want from me

whether that be my interests, beliefs or basic personality

i change the shape of myself so much for someone that i have to wonder if they know my true shape

i meld myself to the shape of others far more often than people meld to the shape of me